A huge departure from my “normal” here…

I’ve been obviously absent from my blog for some time now.  It wasn’t intentional.  I’ve been distracted.  Apparently my blog isn’t the only part of my day from which I have been distracted and unintentionally obviously absent…  life has been hurting.  It’s been hurting A LOT.  Sooooo… here we go…  how could I be so stupid?  How did I not see what was happening?  Trust me, all of this blabbering WILL start to make sense… eventually.  So here “we” go.  Stick with me.  Or don’t.  I’m trying to heal here and nothing makes sense today.

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Dear Heavenly Father,

Today, 7/11/2015, I put every bit of my faith, trust, hope in you.  This pain I am experiencing is not from you.  I know that.  You are the Great Physician.  You make all things new.  You bring healing.  I admit that I’ve tried everything else when I should have turned to you.  Please forgive me.  I love you but even more so YOU love ME.  Facebook, phone calls, emails, none of them are as healing and powerful as you.  I’m not coming to you today just to feel better.  I am coming to you because it is where I belong.  It is where I am supposed to go.  It is the right thing to do.  Your word says you will NEVER leave me nor forsake me.  I am so sorry that I have been distracted & unfaithful to you.  I’d like to say it won’t happen again.  You know me.  It will happen again but I’m really going to try to turn a new leaf.  Now let’s see where you lead us together.


Stay tuned… please…

When being a “freak” isn’t so bad…

I’m going to get straight to the point here.  No pussy footing around.  No beating around the bush.  No going round robin’s barn as my Daddy used to say.  I have NO IDEA what he meant when he said that phrase!  haha  So the point is… I AM A FREAK.  I am a Jesus Freak.  I am a religious freak – not really but that is what I was called this week so I’m going to state it here

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Yes.  I was singled out, set aside, ridiculed and pointed at when I was pronounced as being a religious freak.  That’s okay.  I can think of no higher calling than to be a freak for Jesus.  jesus freak 1

God has been so amaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaZINGly awesome in my life lately that how could I be anything other than crazy about Him?  Not to say that He has to always be showering me with blessings and the good “stuff”, don’t get me wrong.  I’ve had plenty of the not so great “stuff” in life and have learned that during those times is when God has grown me the most.

The world is filled with people who have little tolerance for those who are different from themselves.  But those people need to be loved and shown the love of Jesus, too.  Perhaps they need it more than those of us who already understand that incredible love.

So, YES!  I AM A JESUS FREAK!!  jesus freak 2

I am in LOVE with the one who saved me from myself.  And I will continue to love those who believe there is something wrong with me.  There IS something wrong with me.  There is a LOT that is wrong with me.  But the Son of God loves me with a crazy love and He is doing a good work.  And maybe that is freaky to some people but to me it is all good.  Amen!

Dear God, I truly do want to be “hopelessly devoted to you”,

Yes, I know.  That phrase was made popular back in the late 70’s in the movie “Grease” which is far from good Christian material.  I “Binged” the lyrics and, in a strange way, the words from that love ballad could be a song sung by God to me.  He is HOPELESSLY devoted… I mean HOPELESSLY devoted to me.  Am I devoted to Him?  I want to be, I really do want that in my life.  I even want to be HOPELESSLY devoted to Him!

Before you can be something, you need to know what that thing is, what it means.  I looked up “devotion” in my Bible’s concordance.  There’s not much there but what is there is solid and to the point.

  • Get rid of anything that hinders your devotion (loyalty) to God… Joshua 7:10-12
  • Are you loyal to God only when other believers are present… Joshua 2:16-19
  • The women after Christ’s crucifixion… Mark 15 and following
  • After Lazarus was raised from the dead they swarmed Jesus but their fascination quickly faded… John 12

I could go to Webster’s dictionary to find the definition of the word but, in all honesty, I have enough of the true meaning of the word.  These four references alone are enough to convict me at this point in time that I am far from being the fully devoted follower of Christ that I want to be and should be in my life.

This isn’t meant to be a confession.  I’m not Catholic and don’t understand the whole confession process but I had to admit this morning that I am a real mess.  The past few days I have awakened with a sick, strange feeling in my heart and stomach.  This morning, God called to me and said, “Yoohoo?  Remember me?  Remember our special times together?”  He was calling me to join Him and to come away with Him.

Not that I have totally forgotten God.  But have I been hopelessly devoted to Him?  Nope.  Have I given Him the time in each day that He truly deserves?  Nope.  Have I kept my eyes on Him?  Nope.

I’ve “done” my devotions each day… read the scriptures & the commentary… I’ve prayed off and on… mostly off…  Heck, one day I actually looked at my “to do” list and said, “Well, I will wait to do my devotions until I do” (insert whatever it was that was more INTERESTING right here) “and then I can give God my full attention.”  How dumb is THAT?

Every time I have started to type “HOPELESSLY” (it just happened again!)… my fingers have tried to type HOPEFUL.  God is winking at me.  He’s telling me that He is HOPEFUL that I will return to the “best friend” relationship we have had in the past.  He hasn’t given up on me.  I’m not giving up on me, either.

Those four scriptures have kicked me where I need to be kicked this morning.  So, off I go to that quiet place where only God and I are invited…  because I want to be HOPELESSLY devoted to Him.


My Favorite Things for today – A Blessed Sunday

Today’s list is almost like going to a buffet… it has a lot of variety!

  • Worship this morning… will 10:45 never arrive?
  • My Bible – every day it is the BEST read
  • The phone – a new number being added to the list of callers 🙂
  • LAUGHTER – sometimes for no reason at all!
  • Our world – God’s omniscience over all of it.

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Jeremiah 29:11  For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future…

Thank you Lord.  Amen.

The most important of “My Favorite Things” isn’t even a “thing”…

Yesterday, a friend of mine sent me a YouTube link entitled, “God’s Love Letter For You”.  Let me tell you, it brought me to tears but wonderful, blessed, gut-wrenching tears.  It’s ALL good.

God’s timing continues to totally astound me.  Here is the link for the video.  It is more moving than anything I have seen in a long, long time.  I also am moved by this whole “thing” because the sender is a “new” friend of mine.

God uses each of us in wonderful ways if we will just allow Him to do so.  Imagine what a blessing each of us could be if we only said, “Yes”, when God calls out our name or moves in our heart or does whatever He wants to do in and through us.

I guess I had better attach the link before I forget…

There are so many parts of this video that spoke to me but the most important part was this… “I am your Father and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus.  John 17:23”   Now THAT, my friends, is love.

He is waiting… Luke 15:11-32